Tomorrow you turn 1. It's going to sound so cliché but it is honestly crazy how fast the past year has flown. This time last year I was breathing through contractions and longing for you to be in my arms. It seems like both two seconds and a lifetime ago since I cuddled you for the first time. You were so small - a 6lb 11oz bundle, with rosy cheeks and big dark eyes and I just couldn't get my head around the fact that you were finally here.
Sometimes your daddy and I sit back and scratch our heads at how we created something so beautiful. You are the funniest, craziest, happiest little boy and you make us proud every single day. It is a joy to just sit and watch you learn and grow. From the perfectly-timed gurgles and baby farts you do to break the tension and the sleepy snuggles we have before bedtime to the way you love playing peek-a-boo and never sitting still we cannot imagine what life was like before you were born. You are the jigsaw piece we didn't realise we were missing and you have made me and your daddy complete.
Not every day is easy. You are the worst for fighting your sleeps and if you don't nap then you are grumpy for the rest of the day. But even when times are tough you still manage to crack that gorgeous grin and muster a smile. You are an unstoppable ball of excited energy and it's rare for you to be unhappy for too long.
You love to explore and investigate everything around you. Toys are often left to one side because you would much rather walk around the living room or try to climb the chimney or sometimes just sit and look and listen. You love looking at books and being read stories, often taking yourself off to choose your favourites or drift off to sleep as you listen to mummy or daddy read.
Wherever we go you seem to light up the room and make everybody smile. You have the cheekiest grin and a mischievous twinkle in your eye that everyone loves. You enjoy being around other people and children (especially other babies), often trying to catch up with them all and join in the fun. When we go to classes most of the other babies sit still and listen but you are happiest when you are on the move and walking round to say hello to everyone.
Becoming your mummy is the best thing I have ever done and you have taught me so much. There have been some times over the past year where I feel I have let you down, but it is because of you that I have had the strength to pick myself up.
You make all my days so much brighter just by being in them. Every morning I find myself desperate for you to wake up so I can see you and I miss you when you are asleep at night. Seeing the world through your eyes is so wonderful and I always try to make every day as magical as I can. You are the light of my life - I could not love anybody more than I love you and just thinking about it makes my heart want to burst.
There are times when I look at you and I feel sad because you aren't my little baby anymore. You are a little boy - independent, inquisitive and full of personality. But then I remind myself that there are so many exciting times to come. There are so many adventures to be had and I cannot wait to share them all with you.
With all my love, now and forever,